2009

2010-02-04T19:00:00.001+08:00

BYEBYE! new blog new blog!!!

2010-02-01T20:14:00.001+08:00

not 2009 anymore. changing blog ><

2010-01-25T19:11:00.002+08:00

been super long since i updated.
had a dream which i hope won't come true.
someone told me, 如果把梦说出来，就不会实现。
decided not to say though.

mountains of homework piling everyday.
><
i will complete them.

nothing to look forward these few days.

也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

i read your blog.
i know you may seem okay, but i do know you're not.

you're a nice guy, you certainly deserve someone better than me.

you were my first friend.
let's remain friends.

2009-12-27T15:17:00.002+08:00

*coughs*
down with a terrible cough.
it better be okay by tomorrow.

camp camp camp!! :D
not very looking forward. but, oh well, its still a camp~

lazy to pack my bag...
i know i can pack finish in 10 minutes though.
everything is in my house (:

因为在一千年以后
世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手
浅吻着你额头

2009-12-19T21:28:00.003+08:00

went for EARLY alumni band.
quite fun. me and cassandra went crazy :D

me, jodie, kelly, mingxuan and ernest went crazy today too.
heh. after band, we went together to NIE concert.
slept on the first interval. [first time i sleep in one, PLS DO NOT BLAME ME]
i was seriously tired. and i laid on jodie's shoulder and slept peacefully.
slept through MISS SAIGON and WEST SIDE STORY.

maybe im wrong or something, but i feel that the band was better after the intermission.

then after that, we went to CANTEEN 2 for dinner.
me and ernest went totally crazy over CHICKEN RICE.
superb. (:
the rest went for different. we are loyal fans. heh.

this isn't the first time im alone without you.
i will try my best to contain all my loneliness inside me.
you'll just wait and see, the day you come back to me (:

/edited:
see, this. super true.
you may wanna enlarge before reading. cause its super small ><

2009-12-13T16:27:00.003+08:00

3年的戀愛,我已倦了.當初的喜歡,是現在倦他的根源,
我渴望浪漫,而他.....
卻天性不善於製造浪漫,木訥到讓我感受不到愛的氣息.

女孩終於鼓起勇氣對男孩說：「我們分手吧」
男孩問：「為什麼?」
女孩說：「倦了，就不需要理由了」

一個晚上 ,男孩只抽煙不說話 !
女孩的心也越來越涼
『連挽留都不會表達的情人能給我什麼樣的快樂？』

過了許久...

男孩終忍不住說：「怎麼做妳才能留下來？」

女孩慢慢地說：
「回答一個問題，如果你能答到我心裏就答案，我就留下來。」

……………………

「比如我非常喜歡懸崖上的一朵花，而你去摘的結果是百分之百

的死亡，你會不會摘給我？」

男孩想了想說：「明天早晨告訴你答案好嗎？」

女孩的心頓時灰了下來 ....

……………………

早晨醒來，男孩已經不在

只有一張寫滿字的紙壓在溫熱的牛奶杯下

第一行，就讓女孩的心涼透了

「親愛的，我不會去摘,．．．．．．．．

但請容許我陳述不去摘的理由！

妳只會用電腦打字 ,卻總把程式弄得一塌糊塗 ,

然後對著鍵盤哭，我要留著手指給妳整理程式。

妳出門總是忘記帶鑰匙 ,

我要留著雙腳跑回來給妳開門。

酷愛旅遊的妳,在自己的城市裏都常常迷路 ,

我要留著眼睛給妳帶路。

每月（好朋友）光臨時 ,妳總是全身冰涼，還肚子疼 ,

我要留著掌心溫暖妳的小腹。

妳不愛出門, 我擔心妳會患上自閉症 ,

我要留著嘴巴驅趕妳的寂寞。

妳總是盯著電腦 ,眼睛給糟蹋得已不是太好了 ,

我要好好活著 ...等妳老了 ,

給妳修剪指甲 ,幫妳拔掉讓妳懊惱的白髮 ,

拉著妳的手 ,在海邊享受美好的陽光和柔軟的沙灘 ,

告訴妳一朵朵花的顏色 ,像妳青春的臉…

所以 ....在我不能確定有人比我更愛妳以前

我不想去摘那朵花…」

（這時女孩淚滴在紙上，形成晶瑩的花朵）

抹淨眼淚，女孩繼續往下看：

「親愛的如果妳已經看完了 ,

答案還讓妳滿意的話 ,請你開門吧 !

我正站在門外 ,手裏提著妳最喜歡吃的鮮奶麵包…」

女孩拉開門 ,看見他的臉 ,

緊張得像個孩子 ,只會把擰著麵包的手在她眼前晃。
……………… (完)

worth reading. cause its nice obviously (:

2009-12-13T11:11:00.003+08:00

tired D:
went to rosyth yesterday..
saxophone section pang-sehed me. thanks uhhh.
>< joseph and cassandra both not thereeeee.
cassandra had CIP and joeseph went overseas.

so, sat in second row with a horn guy.
he seemed not bad, but lack in sight-reading.
(:

then went back with benjamin and jingting.
slept and texted all the way back.
super tired. not high anymore.
and next saturday it'll be in the morning.
how great ><

the power of one have once birth. treasure them

2009-12-11T19:07:00.002+08:00

"你的笑如糖果
好想把你也放進肚裡"

went to AMK hub to watch NEW MOON.
yup, the wolves are so cute (:
and jacob so hot. heh.

christmas is here!
very looking forward to the partyyyyy~~

2009-12-05T10:57:00.003+08:00

happy eggs

the eggs there super cute righhht? (:
and i got sore eyes today. my eyes look liddat > (-.-)
really. one day, im going to draw on my eggs also! hoho.
scare my brothers for once. heh.

全世界的人都可以认为我是坏人，除了你之外。

2009-11-27T20:27:00.002+08:00

sam came back again.
missed her like a whole lot.
partied like crazy. but yeah, im alright.
hiding behind you always give me a sense of security (:
p.s, one day if i ever become a guy, i will date you.
hahhaa. really! *sompah*
but i will think twice about marrying you though.
hahahahaaaa~~
--------
everyone got the way they wanted.
but yeah, im fine with what i have now too.
i never expected much either.
[blame yourself for everything, cause you didn't try hard enough]
*stabs self x4*

you will never know how i managed to celebrate this day alone, all on my own. but still, our fairytale has finally come to an end. with the prince leaving the princess, without any words left behind.

2009-11-26T17:13:00.003+08:00

my love is just like that.

something inside me is going on and off
and im getting pissed off by it.

maybe what you told me a few weeks ago was true.
but i swear i never wanted this to happen.

/edited:
i shifted the remaining post to livejournal.

2009-11-25T04:44:00.002+08:00

just don ask me why am i even posting my post at this time :4.44 a.m.

i just can't get to sleep. even though everyone is like dead asleep.
hahha.
just a bit high.
leaving nicholas playing his red psp.
janus and adrian watching SAW V.
and the rest sleeping...><

the room is like friggin' cold also...
can't wait for daybreak. like seriously.
and im missing you. ><
rondo evening concert laterrrrr.

a bit random, but yeah (:
good luck~~
someone please just come online and chat with me...

2009-11-24T19:09:00.001+08:00

"就算孤孤单单走向前也要肩膀依靠"

just a break.
band break is finaaaaaally here.
im so looking forward to it!
and a christmas partayyyyy~ :D

2009-11-22T18:41:00.003+08:00

i missed you for a total of 426 minutes...
i feel so proud of myself for calculating that out.
hahaha, actually im just bored...><

and the minutes are slowly increasing.
gahhh. online lehhh...im bored. rotting.
reply my messages lah ._.

/edited:
it may seem as if im spamming my own blog.
but im not (:
even if i am, it doesn matter whattttt. CAUSE ITS MINE.
im possessive. i never said that i am.
i want what i want. and i'll take it.

cutting my hair soon? (:
i want leh...okay, maybe not my fringe. i like my long fringe (:
its friggin' 7.35 but im super bored.
with absolutely nothing to do. gosh.
the rawr-ness is fiilling up inside me. hoho.
i don't understand what im talking -_-'"

hmph. im bored. i wanna go out ><
reading fanfiction. righhhhht, take it as im really really very bored.
its really entertaining me leh. FAN FICS! (:
the cuteness. rawrrrr. boreeeeed.
going crazy.
oh yah! watch 2012 with mingxuan, jodie and nicholas.
quite funny. though im constantly telling nicholas to stop laughing.
i don get it. why he always laugh at all the sad parts and stuff -.-
super annoying >< really.

2009-11-22T18:05:00.002+08:00

tomorrow's PCS band camp.
looking forward :3

anyways, i know what blog skin to use already.
changing it later or something. its my another blog's skin.
quite plain, but im pleased with it.

i want watch gokusen D:
watch with me...*hint*
i know you are reading this (:

2009-11-20T07:41:00.002+08:00

"take me as i am"

today's the day.
im ready (:
reallyyyyy. im not getting my hopes high ANYMORE.

band break is near.
and so is PCS band camp!~
gonna start preparing everything.
missing all the things i used to have in my hands.

2009-11-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

open house's over.
had fun. loads (:
killed cockroach...heh.

sore throat liao. my voice is so manly. hahahaha.
nevermind, after exchange.
just one more day. im gonna get over this. [:
need a break. want a break. really~

but! im looking forward to PCS band camp!! (:
and coral band camp! hee :D
caaaampppp~

2009-11-15T20:33:00.002+08:00

"放手了后悔了"

didn know its only 8.36 p.m.
cause i just felt that today was such a long day.
rotting at home, in front of the computer.

yesterday was kinda fun. went all the way to Rosyth primary school for recording.
(: quite successful. with a pro RI saxophonist beside me.
hahaa. he's quite loud too. the three of us were like covered by him.
me, kelly and cassandra...haha.

then went back with jiaying.
so long since i saw her (:
she helped me carry my saxophone too. hoho.
and we smuggled food up the bus O:

tomorrow will be a better day...righhhhht?
not actually looking forward towards anything though.
just the band break. and the oversea trip is still not confirmed.
._. what's wrong with people...
and im not only busy with band and other things ((:
since i promised...i will do it.

everyday, i wished for someone to tell me that it will be alright if i can give up, be a coward and be dependent...but since im stilling wishing it everyday, it meant that it haven't come true yet.

2009-11-11T02:28:00.002+08:00

my schedule is fully booked.
its really, everyday happening with a(n) event(s).

i want kitkat now...cause i need a break ._.
how awesome ):
currently, im just busy with band exchanges and primary school band.
and thoughts if i should go for the 'outside' one.
its like all the way to serangoon, and sometimes after band practice -.-
i'll be rushed like shit.
and im not even confirmed if its every saturday ><

i don like i have the time for class gathering too.
hmm. and i still don hav the time to pass the money -.-
see, filled. full. totally. and i have to wake up in this shitty night just to open door.
and as you can see, im awake. like totally.
no one's online -.-
how great.

its really torturing to get the same dream 4 times in a month, waking up almost wanting to cry.

2009-11-08T20:34:00.003+08:00

"放开了就不会后悔"

thought tomorrow will have a break.
but nevermind! ensemble practice and going back PCS :D
heh. these few days i just feel like staying at home and rot.
rotting isn't good for health thoughhhhh.

craving for some comfort food.
ice-cream, cupcorn, lollipop and stuff.
going to grow fat and die ._.

if i run away now, you will say that im a coward. but i just can't stand it anymore. suffocating.

i wonder if he's really that mean ><
he seems like a nice person though,
even though vulgarities come out from his mouth all the time ._.
hmm. just a wonder.

2009-11-04T11:58:00.002+08:00

直到永远

i guess i got pang-sehed.
hmm. it doesn't matter much.
feel like cutting my hair ><
--------
btw, im not pang-sehed! :D
cause i just forgot to check my phone.

2009-11-03T07:10:00.002+08:00

如果说一千句“我爱你”能让你安心，我愿意说一万句来让你爱上我。

band later. 9 to 4...><
but im looking forward to wednesday (:
these few days was tough to bear though.
im sure the next 2 months will be like hell...

samantha's busy the next few weeks. o.o
see, even she is busy. gah.
nvm, im still angry.
band laterrrrrrrr.

我曾经想过：“当你放开了手离开的时候, 有没有一点舍不得我?”

2009-11-02T15:12:00.003+08:00

如果我变成回忆

sorry for being all naive then.

all these bad weathers made me super negative.
damn. all these twisted events.
and i did really try my best. i can't help it if im a girl right?
what? grow it on myself? ridiculous -.-

if this is the way i am, face it.
thanks a lot man, all the put downs.
because you made me WHO I AM.
who's the one told me i don't have any good points?
who's the one that said i'll never achieve anything?
well, how could i achieve and have any good points if its YOU trying to put down everything i tried hard? FUCK YOU.

i even regretted crying when you failed to turn up for last week's event.
well, it doesn matter anymore right?
i'll just get out of this damn mess after i grow up.
no more of my smiles will ever be shown towards you.
thanks a lot.
-----------------------------------
someone please let me know if (s)he ever read it.
i'll be so glad. seriously.

and yeah. 2 months IS really a long time.
you can count how many minutes and hours there are.
ask me personally, i counted. cause im already missing him ><

band band band~
band marathon has started. hmm.
and im coming down with some huge fever if no one has noticed -.-
gah. and i hate END OF YEARS.
singapore. zzz. just freaking stop raining.

2009-10-24T09:15:00.002+08:00

hmm, im fine now.
thanks.

anyways, saturday. no band ._.
yesterday. a totally screwed up day. nvm.
shall not elaborate more.

but band was nice.
sectionals was tiring, which made me stopped thinking.
focussss~
AMIRUL AND MINGXUAN NOT GOING FOR TUESDAY BAND!
omg. disaster.
p.s, im gonna upload a picture of mini mingxuan later, btw, its really cute kayyyy.

2009-10-17T19:39:00.003+08:00

"当你放开了手离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我"

i didn't realised i'll spent over 10 hours on DRAGONICA.
hahaha, but still its worth it.
better than lying around, doing nothing (:

anyways, yesterday went to watch 500 days of summer.
a not bad show actually. :D maybe there's an autumn? i don't mind.
oh and i 'pat-toh' with samantha. hahaha.
really, i quoted from her...O.O

we went to sun rise
super romantic, until the part that i was watching with samantha.
hahahaha. :D
anyways, sam came back on wednesday night.
without telling me
there, what a great friend she is. -.-
but i had fun. LOVE LOVE LOVE HER.
getting lesbian-ish. hahaha. no, never going to be.

we talked about guys stuff, girls stuff, we bitched...about each other.
hahaha, our everyday life. hahaha.
oh, and i missed the way we'll say how KFC chickens are gay (:
errhh-herm, are you jealous??~~~
i went to watch sun rise with your...err, samantha. hahahaha.
kay, im expecting a prank call later.

and, we're going out on MONDAY again!!!
this time with everyone! heh.
dan, samantha, kaizhe...and samantha's special one. hahahhaa.
seriously, those two like playing game liddat. zzz.
eh, i want go to that big big big playground we went last month.
must go see if the paper we buried still there not.
our wishes all inside. :D

2009-10-15T19:36:00.002+08:00

you found out, so just keep it a secret.

my science paper was disastrous. my chemistry was alright, which was A HUGE SURPRISE.
then omg, my phyics was like shit.
totally screwed it upside down. -.-
didn't managed to finish somemore.

i cried in the toilet.
cause like it was a total shock. i mean like, i should be alright in physics.
but it all went wrong.
just when i thought 付出过就一定会有收获.
oh, how naive [roll eyes].

then i went down to buy paint.
it was just an excuse...
but i saw jodie outside bookshop. (:
super glad.
she is gonna graduate today...
our eight years together. hmm. a long time.
btw, 11 more days uh. and remember our 1 month bet :D
i still got the bottle too. i remember the date. 22.

by the way, my art was alright (:
dumb me to lost the freaking poster paint-black.
super difficult to paint using acrylic luh. wasted a lot. ><

had a call today. super annoyed.
because it wasn't supposed to end up like that. but, im gonna say it sooner or later.
maybe i'll like it, who knows :X

The touch of your hand says You'll catch me Whenever I fall.

2009-10-14T22:31:00.002+08:00

and i drown in a sea of noise and sound, losing my own self.

alright~ talked to shaoqi earlier on through msn.
such a optimistic person (: hahhaa.
anyways, trying hard to get my things right on chemistry.
actually, it isn't that bad afterall. :D

and my physics is still untouch.
together with my art, sitting at the back of my brain.
waiting for me to water them. =.=

right, today's papers were actually alright.
literature was easy, except that there wasn't time to write more.
and there's seriously a lot of things to write...><
geography was in fact quite fun.
hahaha, i finished in half an hour. started drawing on the extra papers i had.
super funny, was totally laughing to myself. crazyyyy. ><
high-ing alone.

2009-10-11T16:43:00.003+08:00

stressed -.-

okay, firstly other than the stress part.
im super super angry ._.
like seriously [maybe its just the stress building inside]

but yah. gosh. people OUGHT to understand:
THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU.
damn it. i mean,
就算你死掉，世界也不会因此这样而毁灭、消失。
yes, yes, people a few people will feel sad for you.
but hellish, all all all all of them cleanly forget about you, serious,
no matter how important you used to be.

so to conclude, im just freaking angry.
and by the way, i have a father and a mother, so im NOT YET a bastard.

stingy old person that don't even bother to spend 5 minutes.
A LOSER. no, its more like an ASSHOLE.

2009-10-09T21:13:00.002+08:00

"maybe no matter how much i say i won't talk to you, i still will...one day."

to those that understand, good for you :D

i've decided what to draw for ART. kind of.

met, not one but TWO bitches. literally the kind.
i seldom call people bitch, but, well, they are. not my fault~
shall not elaborate more, ask me! i'll tell you, super irritated by them.

haha! physics remedial was super fun!
YY was super fun. hahaha, laughing at all our horny jokes :D
thank you thank you. APPLE APPLE~

2009-10-08T22:24:00.002+08:00

"when everything fits together perfectly, its music."

im doing geography now, while playing CafeWorld. hahaha.
today was somehow a good day, i guess.
its nice to have a goal in your mind.

countdown: 8 more days!

2009-10-06T15:42:00.001+08:00

一位已经死去的１７岁少女的刻骨铭心的爱情创作

a really nice song, just spare 3.08 minutes to view it (:
its seriously worth it.

2009-10-05T19:09:00.003+08:00

"and life is a road that i wanna keep going."

okay, what an awesome day -.-
just realised that im seriously lagging behind in my studies.

so, im really studying le! serious. sompa. ahahahahaha.
kay luh, continuing now.

/edited:
omg omg omg, i just read through my last year's posts.
suddenly realised, i seriously miss kaizhe, samantha, dan, and sadly, jx.
it was seriously fun lah.
especially with sylvia, joelle, tianwen, huiyi, wangxue (:
LOVE YOU ALL~ ahhahahhaah.
i miss samantha the most. and my dog, kaizhe.
still remembered how i highlight kaizhe's hair pink.
cute mah. pink hair (: rocker wannabe.
key-word is wannabe. hahahahaha~

i feel that i totally lost contact with all of them.
._. samanthaaaaaa. where're you!?!?! rawr.
i still like the way you tell me everything's gonna be all right...
[even though in the end, it totally ends up wrong.]
but i still appreciate all of that. really.
hmmm. kaizheeee. see, i still remember you.
not sure if you remember me...but IM SURE YOU DO!
rightttt~ :D cause you're my dog.
kay luh, my bestest friend, on par with samantha kay!
don't say i always treat you badly...im nice.
the nicest person on earth. or at least, in my house~ (:
haahhahaa. or maybe compared with you, im nicer.
there, seee. gah, i misses you guys.
dan dan dan dan~ my tomguy. hahahaha.
still like the way you lie on my shoulders and start saying that im too short.
o.o i still remember kay!~ you owe me tons of stuff.
a lot of thank yous and sorrys. i never forget them.
cause you're just one stubborn hole that don't say thank you and sorry.
gah. the most stubborn person i've seen.

if you people ever read this, i miss you guys kay! come back soon~
btw btw, Dan, your you-know-who is missing you everyday. hahahahhaa.
get what i mean kay. don 想错!

2009-10-04T08:54:00.003+08:00

"看透了我的全部就能心安吗?"

hmm, i never liked pink, but OMG, LOOK! *points*
its so eff-ing delicious and tempting~~
hahahhaa. serious. feel like eating ice cream now.
i want I SCREAM! its at e-hub or downtown. i can't remember.
but hellish, its nice with Oreo. um mum mum~

okay, yesterday wasn't that bad.
apparently people don't master the skills of talking behind one's back.
STARE!
if only stare could kill man, i'll start sweeping them off like some dust -.-

oh yeah, GUITAR ROCK was nice. hahahaha~
and i still want my 福建面 and 汤圆 ._.
this craving started last time. gosh, i feel that im pregnant.
huixiu's child?! O.O
hahahahhaa. crazy.

im seriously gonna do my geography and FN today! D:<>shit.

2009-09-29T20:15:00.003+08:00

today paper 1 for chinese and english.
i don't think im screwed up. (:
but there's no definite.

and i smiled super bright lah, when ms anne handed me my compo.
heh. 18/30 leh. super wow lah!
then she wrote "language errors are far fewer in this piece-good!
story line is engaging and believable"
wahahahahhaa~ :D :D
not bad righttttt?

and suprisingly, i managed to remember all the formats~
credits to Vanessa. hahahahaa.
also, im super duper glad i brought my dictionary, the book kind.
i found tons of good phrases and words inside :D
the trouble was a blessing in disguise uhh~

4 As, im coming! :D

2009-09-28T17:08:00.002+08:00

you gave me a gift on that first day i met you,
a spring.

tomorrow's PAPER 1 for english and chinese D:<
note to self: bring dictionary~

today wasn't such a bad day (:
sat bus to school. listening to titanic medley all the way.
seriously, its nice. :D

kept on thinking things won't be that bad.
since i got a feeling i can get at least 4 As, somehow must be confident mah.
CHIONG UH~ heh.

2009-09-27T07:23:00.003+08:00

its amazing how black and white are perfectly suited for each other.

going to study with jodie and nicholas later.
BUDDY BUDDY~ though i don't like that place much...
hmm.

somethings in my head is annoying me :O
gah, and im hungry.

also, jeff dunham rocks (:
ask sylvia, she'll agree with me. hee.

he's cute with a wife [in the progress of divorce] and 3 daughters.
hahahhaa. serious.
and peanut, melvin, walter, ACHMED. hahahhaa.
a few of my favourites (:

/edited: 10.08 a.m.
gah, im bored~
tsk tsk. im turning green soon, from all the excessive green tea :O
then maybe i'll turn into a green leaf.
eeew, hahahahahhaa.

2009-09-26T10:43:00.003+08:00

就算牵的不是我的手我真的不难过

next week paper 1.
im not feeling anything. im numb already. gah.
my LJ's flooded with posts. decided to switch to Blogger for a moment.

i understood what's with the twitching and sleepless nights.
things changing. though its not within my control.
in reality, im not god.
and if i ever get to be one, this will never happen.
NONE of it.

everyone around me are having sleepless nights too.
and last night, everyone cried in their own respective bedroom.

i need a hug now.

2009-09-21T10:26:00.002+08:00

if only life was like a rainbow.

there, i didn't know blogger was back to normal.
this prove how long i've used it :X
but then, yay~
though im still using livejournal. and its supposingly, half done...
zzz.

exams! hardcore! no band -.-
rawr rawr. bored.

2009-08-10T11:44:00.000+08:00

sick -.-
must be all the fried stuff getting to me. haiiz.

going out soon. i think.
im a bit lazy. but! i need to finish my FN, so its a must.
-.- i hate my life.

i feel like reaching WS at 1. hahahha.
zzz. im dying...hahaha. *cough*

2009-08-09T17:22:00.000+08:00

im bored. TSK.
im left with FN and geography.
hmm. i think i'll just do my FN recipes first.
the research i'll leave it to huixiu. X:

geography's bull shit luh.
== hahhaa. everyone'll agree. heh.

okay, national day.
everyone's at home. cause HUIXIU picked her shopping over me. zzz.
didn't finish ANYTHING at all today. might as well go out D:<

tomorrow, i shall finish my FN since im meeting huixiu.
then, i shall try my very best to finish geography.
though its so not gonna happen. hahaha.
im gald my maths done -.-
stupid formula. JUNE, its 1/3 not 1/2!!!! RAWRRRRR.
i think jolene knows what im talking about. LOL.

its such a sucky national day. hmm.
at least yesterday was nice.

2009-08-09T10:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday was funnnn~
hahaha, went to watch G.I. JOE.
was unexpectedly good. heh ((:
and CHIPS SHOP was still the best among all. hoho.

im going to watch NDP fireworks with HUIXIU~~~
MWACCCCKKKS. hahahha, i hope she replies me soon.
which somehow, i don't think she will until 12 plus...

okay, a short post actually.

牵着你的手变成了我改不了的习惯

2009-08-08T10:28:00.000+08:00

this is my 201 posts. heh~

pangseh-ed people to go gym at Tampines Sports Hall there.
hmm. sorryyyy ><

okay, today is a very terrible day.
i got white spots all over my left cheek.
super ugly...
and my right cheek is swollen from the inner ulcer.
hmm, lucky today no band.
if not it'll be painful.

it has become my habit to wake up at 6 every saturday.
i wake sharply at 6 some more. zzz.

[drink more water, sleep more kay? (:]

2009-08-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

super tired. someone just simply put words into my mouth.
but im not gonna care. im tired.
and i feel just right with him anyways.

alrights, just finished my everything.
im gonna sleep soon. fainting i think. LOL.
anyways, im still laughing over the videos i posted.
insane after a day of anger and hard work (:
its what we all deserved anyways. all the fun. hahaha.

not gonna elaborate more on today. need to sleep.
don wanna become panda.

2009-07-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

幸福车站没有王子骑着白马
只有真心的傻瓜在终点为你盖个家
风雨都吹不垮爱到有了白发

band band and more band.
haha. okay, after this sunday performance.
im gonna mug mug and more mugging.
life sucks don't they? o.o

next week won't be better.
cause there'll be parade square assembly-es.
super retarded.
classrooms assembly would be like super nice.
no hot and sweaty uniforms even before lessons!
there, see!~

and, im not looking forward to anything now =.=
damn no life can. tsk.

2009-07-26T17:38:00.003+08:00

Plain White T's -1234.

a super nice song that i got addicted on recently.
i love you <3.

Patrick Nuo -5 days.
that guy's quite cute. hahaha. like seriously...

/edited: 6.11p.m.
procrastinated until now to do homework.
hahaha. okay, im kinda looking forward to tomorrow.
when i absolutely have no idea whyyyy...hmm.

2009-07-26T12:45:00.000+08:00

once again, blogger's screwed.
and i've decided to kept my livejournal as private.
so yup, im going on with this screwed stuff (:

im ready to do my homework, soon.
hahaha. and today's gonna be a terrible day even though its only 12.46 p.m.
my handphone's quiet and my msn is silent.
not to mention, i've almost done all the facebook quizzes i can find.
==

had a horrifying night. nightmare here and there.
gah.
and damn, i missed him D:

2009-07-24T04:16:00.001+08:00

okay, blogger is so screwed lah ==

anyways, band was super fun yesterday. kinda.
since im always, sharp, so there's not much difference with that.
huixiu and me were acting super bimbotic.
she started by saying my lips were sexy after i played.
cause its super red and sore.

then she started licking her lips,
doing some monkey faces with denise,
and laughing. hahahaha.

so yup, dinner-ed at foodcourt [due to POPULAR demands].
queued a stall with jodie that was super UNFAIR.
they absolutely don't serve customers through first-come-first-serve.
super retarded! D:<

sectionals later.
btw, its 4.19 a.m.
and its gonna rain?! o.o
tsk. super cold.
oh, and yah, slept at 9.30 p.m.
INFLUENCED by some INFANT.
RAWR. eat you. wahahhaa.

2009-07-17T09:01:00.000+08:00

yes, im at home.
i didn't skipped school. im just sick.
headache.

my heart hurts too.
a lot a lot.
that i sat up on my bed and cried.
i gave up on him.
the color faded.
the smile faded.
none has stayed.
i think its more like he wanna have a clean break with me,
telling me that he has a girl that he likes.

so, im staying at home now.
doing nothing. waiting for sms-es.
and im having a bad bad fever now D:
also, a terrible stomach ache.
everything just adds up.

going to doctor later to get my MC.
gah. wanna go school somehow.
miss joelle. heh.

2009-07-16T16:03:00.001+08:00

anyways, im switching to livejournal soon.
blogger sucks~ like seriously ==

and i think i won't have the voice to talk tomorrow.

2009-07-15T21:45:00.003+08:00

a confusion that was eventually led to a confession.

today was the most irritating day every ==
ms anne scolded me for absolutely nothing.
since in the end, she also never collect the english compre book.
so i stood and stared for nothing. WOW.

went to eat takopachi :D
then went back to buddy hoagies to find huixiu and nicholas.
quite fun actually.
and even without nicholas telling me,
i do know that it has been a long time hanging out with them TT-TT

and and and, BAND IS RESUMING!
or so i think :X

2009-07-14T17:02:00.002+08:00

e-learning day. super sian.
was out mostly.
cause i didn't was soft copies. so went to school to get them.

saw joelle and joseph koh.
then joseph koh lent us his homework to photocopy.
dumb school D:<

and i completed almost everything except english and maths.
hmm.
later do? O.O

2009-07-12T10:14:00.001+08:00

seriously don't feel like going out today.
see first.
since we're meeting at 11.15 ==
super tired.

走在人群中　
能够和你牵手

2009-07-11T12:02:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i can't help but believe in fate

so i guess, that time is now.
then, i miss him.

later going out.
can't be bothered to stay at home.
even after all the crazy stuff happened.
retardeds.

maybe i should study alone later.
needa do some reflections on myself...

/edited: 12.19 p.m.
okay, i do know that im late.
but then, just changed skin (:
cause found out several people using the same one.
and another reason cause the meaning to this skin is gone.
so yeah, changed.
think this is only a temporary one only.

2009-07-10T23:44:00.002+08:00

a super nice show. rewatched it recently, cause saw this exact video on jewel's blog.

anyways, its jeleen's birthday in 15 minutes time.
trying to stay up late. since she was the first to sms me on my birthday (:

today was a sad day.
but Mr J and A cheered me up. should thank them when i see them in school.
i think im dying of blood loss le.
hmm.

2009-07-09T20:38:00.003+08:00

doing nothing now, except posting.
and sms-ing.
trying to get my butt off and start doing my chinese homework.
but kinda procrastinated. hmm.

today after school turned out wrongly.
but still i hate geography.
and that Ms something which i didn't bothered to remember.
the slides are super WORDY lah.
and messy. don like her 就对了.

joelle's birthday soon.
not much money to fork out though. felt bad.
hmm. peaches not money mah...><
unless you want egg (:

2009-07-08T08:37:00.002+08:00

life sucks.
today i reached school kinda early (:
HEE.

but then, i remembered, i didn't bring my essay again.
zzz.
anyways, hope later miss anne don't collect bah.
since we're doing the NEWSPAPER REPORT.

later going to eat double cheese burger. heh.
don't think will get pang-seh.

MISS THAM NOT GOING WITH US
for syf presentation night. TT-TT
im looking forward to paragon too. hmmm.
my 101 saxophone rotting at home already.
i wanna play. play play play. RAWR.
i miss main band. haha.
i miss showing huixiu that im hungry...even though i still do that.
but i definitely miss the days we eat dinners today.
and make a joke out of ourselves (:

this semester sucks.
even my stars project stopped.
hmm. was kinda looking forward to it too.
wanted some fun other than playing computer, going out with the usuals.
studying with jodie.
hmm. maybe i should go jog.
no band no stamina.
hmm. kay~~

2009-07-07T16:08:00.002+08:00

just saw this on youtube. super cuteeee.

anyways. i shall not elaborate on today.
and, i miss bombshelter...a lot.
other than the part where the lizard came over my head.
but yah, <33

went back today.
omg, i totally missed my platform.
can't wait for band to start again. hmm.

2009-07-06T20:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's the past and tomorrow's the future.
Today is a gift - that's why they call it the present
- Bill Keane

cause im using some retarded blogger that glitched me to cannot post photos.
so yah. its picture-less.

anyways, HAPPY YOUTH DAY.
hahaha. a rotting day with huixiu (:
we went to library to read ghost story. LOL.

2009-07-05T19:53:00.001+08:00

this or this?

i seriously prefer the first one(:
super cute loh.

anyways, was YOUTUBE hopping with :D
fun~
hahahhaa, he called me and suddenly said, 我很丑但我很温柔...
then hang up.
omg, super random lah.

2009-07-05T14:14:00.005+08:00

its empty and colorless.

life has been nothing these few days other than staying at home to study
or to meet up with the USUALS.
hmm, and yah. im meeting up with Jodie later.

i've forgotten what my life's like with BAND.
everyday going for band? O.O
staying out late everyday? O.O
omg, that's life! ==
seriously. i want band back. i mean like, WHO CARES ABOUT H1N1.
those can go in the recycling bin.
no wait, i don't even want it to come back.

actually, i don't mind taking temperature like what Zhafri said.
hahahaha.
BUT I DEFINITELY MIND NOT GOING FOR BAND.
and, a long weekend rotting at home with no band sucks.
i've been facing Dragonica's WHITE TOOTH for a long long shitty time.
20 times of fighting that. is that insane or retarded?

shiiiiiiiiiit. i want band. band band band band.
hmph. deprived from it for too long alreadddddyyyy~
and DY, you better say its free and available to use man! D:<

2009-06-28T18:40:00.004+08:00

yup, just went for the concert, "BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY"
i went with JODIE, NICHOLAS, HUIXIU and another NICHOLAS. lol.
and me and jodie both agreed that its so far the best concert we've went this year.
haha.

and really. its nice.
and what i've told joelle.
3 letters to described it, wow.
hahaha.
though the tuba solo wasn't the way i imagine it would be...BUT! its still super cute ((:
and and and, first time[seriously the first time] i heard Do-Re-Mi through a band style.
seriously, its nice.
the typewriter was totally cool. hahaha.
the way the song went was super nice. the percussion were a WOW. ahahha.

so yah, now at home.
doing my summary later and CHINESE compo later.
or so i think. hahaha.

btw, check out that video :D
i've been finding that song for a long time. and somehow with the help of joelle.
see, i credited her. hmmm.

2009-06-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

saw this on HuiXiu's blog.
so went over to the main site to take a look.

this girl, CHARMAINE is a very strong girl (:
fight on yeah?
"Charmaine has been diagnosed with neuroblastoma. She is currently in the 4th stage and fighting hard. We are greatly saddened that such a sweet and cheerful little girl has to undergo so much pain and suffering at such a young age"

so, yup. just go to this site and start spreading it.
and hope some kind souls will chip in their part too(:

2009-06-26T21:02:00.002+08:00

its only a temporary love.

okay, firstly. im trying my very best to stay up today!
haha, Nicholas' birthday tomorrow. my DARLIN' leh.
LOL.
but its still planning in progress, shhhh.

today sucks.
planned to do work, ended up sleeping through.
tssk. then woke up watch tv.
sigh, nvm. i 认命 already. haha.

and huixiu's computer die le.
TT-TT hope she fix it soon (:
see, im nice.

i forgot you have short term memory,
maybe one day, i'll just disappear.

2009-06-25T11:55:00.003+08:00

i think i dreamed you into life.

okay, great isn't it.
i couldn't complete all my work.
gah!

anyways, band camp was canceled.
super disappointed.
but till the end, i wasn't sure at all if i was looking forward to it.
somehow, i think i am (:
and so, we had a 'party' yesterday to clear all the clear-able food.
gillian helped us a lot. hahaa.

studied a bit at BK.
actually was just annoying Nicholas.
or should i say he was annoying me?
if you've never hear a guy scream, you should know Nicholas.
hahahhaa. screamed when everyone took his fries.
wth... (:

going out later.
anyways, holiday wasn't extended D:<
btw, to those who think its control. think again.
when its controlled, cases wouldn't increase...retardeds.

我們都不能確保誰是我們這生中最重要的人。
但我們能讓彼此更堅定著去認定對方。

2009-06-22T19:25:00.003+08:00

everyone ignored that fact which was brought up.

went to buy food with Food Comm.
kinda fun. Cassandra was unreachable though D:
so me, huixiu, nissa and nicholas went to NTUC at WhiteSands.
saw Renee and Evan (:

then we wait half an hour outside the school gates for people to bring the food in.
TT-TT chatted with the uncle.
MissTham not coming for camp?! :O
hmmm...japan.

we sat 88 to Giant.
which was the wrong bus. hahaha.
so we sat back and walked. and talked.
haha. Nissa kinda went mad [either from the heat or me].
so we ventured around. buy here buy there.

then we went to ikea to shop.
but in the end, we didn't buy anything there.

so went back giant to pay.
waited for Nicholas and Amirul. two 'strong' ones. hahahaa
then we sat the CORRECT bus back :D

went to BK.
so the noise continued...mainly by Nicholas.
so we taped his mouth up.
etc etc.

anyways, here comes the frustrating part.
== people is already on train and finally a message that was sent..
SO OBVIOUSLY that is was last minute to me.
gah. so i sat the train back.
like some crazy idiot. hmmm.

so now, im superly irritated. gah.
i swear im never gonna spend time doing this kind of stuff every again.
waste time waste money. retarded.

2009-06-21T19:04:00.003+08:00

everyone said it doesn't matter, but they cared.

okay, happy stuff first.
KO came out(: just finished watching.
damn cute as always. hahaha. anyways, i know its about time i should finish my work.
yeah, so, im finishing them TOMORROW.
yes, everything. cause i promised all of them must be done before band camp.
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it has been a long time since we met.
everytime he hinted me, i don't get it.
everytime i hint him, he don't get it.
when i get fed up and told him straight, he's not free.
seriously, a relationship maintained through sms-es are not enough.
maybe he just doesn't understand that.
曾经对你的感觉好象渐渐的消失.
只怕我们再也找不会对你那甜蜜的感觉.

2009-06-19T22:43:00.002+08:00

no matter how nice or beautiful you may look, you'll disappear.

sigh, im falling back into time.
im totally stress, and feeling retarded now.
zzz. okay, a super short post since my laptop battery is drying out soon.

had a day out with Nicholas yesterday.
well, it was fun. we started slapping each other.
D:<
anyways, i feel freaking stupid for going out without a ez link.
so yeah, reached home super late. hmm.
okay, im gonna sleep now.
going out tomorrow :DD

2009-06-16T22:25:00.003+08:00

don't struggle, i'll set you free. even if it takes everything of me.

okay, welcome the NO LIFE week.
cause im totally not stepping out of house now.
SUPERRR no life kay. zzz.

but i still have my handphone and laptop.
sounding freaking gay but true.
today went overseas. lame. tired. handphone no battery. gah \._./

oh yeah, first time i turned down a concert TT-TT
especially one i wanna go. hmm D:
oh yeah, im lvl 12 now. in ICA. haha. another no life game.
random-ing cause im using laptop, cannot play.

i finally bought my RENU BLINK AND CLEAN. for 2 bucks.
uberrr cheap kay :D another happy thing.

2009-06-13T07:15:00.003+08:00

jump and let out the devil inside

went out with Nicholas yesterday(:
walked to Mrt and sat to Simei-Sony Erricson.
his phone went on strike and Nicholas broke down.
hahahhaha.

i just realised i have tons of homework still undone! :O
stupid life.
im having sudden urges to go band these few days.
zzz. then when i go band, i'll feel bored and tired.
tskk. and i wanna finish another page of maths today. HEEE.

*edited post

每一封简讯传出的思念都对你说我爱你

im seriously bored. and don't feel like stepping out of the house.
HEE. but promised Nicholas to go out with him le.
but still, im gonna charge full my phone first.

i want a new phoneeee =.=
stupid lah, i hate W910i already.
i want a SE slide phone. without any problems.
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

super bored already. no one's online 'cept MingXuan.
but i think he's mapling or audi ._.
kay lah kay lah, i going to bathe soon.
meeting at 11 a.m.

2009-06-10T17:24:00.002+08:00

`i'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too

it has been quite fun these few days (:
band break, but im going back band every single day. hahaha.
well, im addicted aren't i?

anyways, had a high lunch at McDonalds today.
with Jodie, Nicholas and MingXuan.
Nicholas was lying on me when he ate finish -.-
and jodie was telling all her stories. hahaha.
and mingxuan was doing all his UNGLAM acts. once in a while ah.

then mingxuan went home.
leaving nicholas, jodie and me.
and somehow i dragged nicholas to BIG BOOK SHOP.
which is like near my house? hahahaa.
and so, we bought his NEW BORN black file and i helped him to file everything.
>< actually its because he was super unorganized and taking a long time.
he could like chuck everything inside. hahaha.

and then i walked home.
im having tutoring 1 hour later. which i totally forgot twice today.
so, i haven bathe, and i just ate tons of durians.
which meant bad breathe. yesterday's durians were nicer D:<

okay okay, im gonna finish my maths second page later.
SWEARS! :D

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year
but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great

Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

2009-06-08T11:07:00.002+08:00

no one understands how it feels like to be stuck in nowhere.

okay, im super emo now.
with my mother shouting to me from upstairs.
yes, im trying to block out everything.
not that im ... or anything, its just that,
SHE HAS BEEN SHOUTING AT ME SINCE 7 IN THE MORNING.
and i tried stopping her, but she continued.

=.= im taking it as PMS.
its not my problem. as long as i keep quiet, and wait till its 1.
i'll be out of this damn place.
she don't understand, she never will and she never does.
so yeah, im going to get out of here...soon.
only that its 11.10 now.
gah.
oh yeah, where's my phone -.-

2009-06-02T21:47:00.003+08:00

OMG, really im super shocked.
though i say everyone must gimme a present, but im really not expecting anything.
so, im super super super happy now. SMILES.

received CHIP from HuXiu, Jodie, Nicholas, Amirul, MingXuan.
it was definitely nice of them (:
and also, 3 pink daisies from Mutiara.
very cuteeee~
though it was somehow squashed by QiLong's bag...

so, im posting all the photos after i received all my presents from CLICK.
hahahhaa, so just wait kay.

thanks to:
Instructor Cress. Mr Goh. Mr Aw. Mr Wong.
Jodie. MingXuan. Amirul. Nicholas. Zhafri. HuiXiu. Daniel. Mostafa.
Kelly. Mutiara.
Sabrina. Jeleen. JiaEn. Silvia. Cassandra. Farhah. Jewel. XinYuan. Ibrahim.
Joelle. Anderitte. Sylvia. TianWen. WangXue. HuiYi.
KimChye. James. Syed. Rachel.
anymore it'll be the rest of the band. which are like EVERYONE.

2009-06-01T19:01:00.001+08:00

feelings retarded-ly angry -.-
people don wanna go with me to the singtel shop...and im seriously scared that i'll turn that place
upside down.
gah.
and please, i tried before already.
when i got that phone. so I WANT MY BROTHER TO GO WITH ME.
and banana-ish need my father's signature.

do you think i'll drag you to go if i don need your signature? =.=
puh-lease, only your right hand is important.
and maybe the pen. you're not that BIG.
i want my new plan NOW NOW NOW. gahhhhhh~

2009-06-01T11:40:00.001+08:00

posted so much, but forgotten something most most most important in this century.

JUNE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY~

hahahha, i somehow forgot about it totally.
so yeah, thats all.

im the fourth earliest person to wish myself that.
first was Instructor Cress,
second was Mr Goh.
third was Mr Aw.
fourth is myself!!! but i got a feeling i left out someone.
but, nvm nvm ((:

2009-06-01T11:23:00.002+08:00

blocking out all noise and sounds.

okay, im very irritated now.
there's some drilling and construction below my house block.
which meant SUPER NOISY.
oh yah, credited to MinZhuang who somehow posted her status on facebook,
and i remembered to post this.

anyways, yesterday's concert was high.
hahaha, i was like laughing throughout the concert.
=.= anyways, there were nice songs (:

i regretted eating chocolates and fries now.
no voice now =.=
and its super itchyyyyy~
[do not ask me to stretch me hand in -.-]
can't survive in an air-conditioned place.
which meant, yesterday's concert was my worst place to be in.
RAWR.

2009-05-31T11:04:00.002+08:00

when the whole world's sad, all the more you should smile.

okay, im kinda in a rush.
cause i played too long on the computer. heh.
i needa leave house by 12.20
meeting people at 1.30, whitesands.

today's the concert(:
so happy. LOL.
oh oh oh, im going to study later :D
i hope its at somewhere good. i wanna do some maths today.

im hungryyyyy~
today's breakfast was fun. drew on egg. hahahha.
i drew a happy face! somehow like the picture on top.

2009-05-30T16:58:00.003+08:00

one day, it'll just come to an end.

okay, im in a super bad mood now.
and its not like i want to -.-
so it went like this, i wanted to use desktop, so i let him use my laptop.
and he suay suay, wanna use desktop.
he think he cute or what?

then quarrel, and he blurted something which my mother shouldn't have known.
apple pie. cause he's just someone that doesn't keep secrets.
okay, so now, once he wants to know something, JUMP DOWN THE BUILDING FIRST.
banana.

then my handphone bills came.
mangosteen lah. shoot up like idk what alreadys.
changing to STUDENT PLAN on monday~ ((:
my dream has came true. hahahaha. the plan that i always wanted.
YAY me~ so i better don't be lazy on monday and wake up early.

anyone can say that im a ---, really, anyone but you!

2009-05-29T20:19:00.002+08:00

today was alright.
because there are some silent readers around, so i better not post some stuff.
but still, im feeling totally unwell.

i cried in assembly, used 2 packets of tissues. no one really knows the truth.
and understood some stuff which Nicholas told me a few months back.
"some friends will really be there for you when you need them, which others will just leave you there-dark and lonely"
i broke my promise with Jodie saying that i'll make her high.

oh yeah, band was fun (:
playing some random songs with MingXuan.
and learned "you're my sunshine".
very nice. hahaha.

walked to interchange with Nicholas.
after sending Jodie to her tuition...and after eating at subway.
we ate SUBWAY MELTS and did our holiday schedule.

there're just some guys who refuses to act like a man and prefers to act like some random bitch. there's nothing wrong with acting like a bitch, but just prove yourself to be better before being one then. LOSER.

2009-05-28T06:04:00.002+08:00

(you are so beautiful to me~~)
在我眼里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
太愚昧难道
笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心死了彼此不信任了
终於懂了真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
my love~
笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心死了彼此不信任了
终於懂了真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说你真的忘记了
爱了就有坚持理由
别说我会留在路口
不会走
爱你会直到最後
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以复合

i woke up super early.
cause i kept on getting the same nightmare over and over again.
so i became pekcek and used computer.
saw KimChye online again 0.0

i think i'll be quiet today.
idk, see what will happen first. cause afterall he/she/it is in my class.
"...you 心痛 not?"

2009-05-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

im uberrr high now.
cause just reached home from a 2D1N camp...
and sitting at the sidewalk acting like some mad woman.

oh right, the camp was alrighhhhht~
but some facts made it -.-'" but i still have MINZHUANG.
haha, my buddy buddy.
we had YY and WanYi too. our mirror group.
super fun with them.
oh and YiHeng was in my group. my entertainer. LOL.
i tried and made MinZhuang high about the camp :D
cause its no fun high-ing alone.
then in the end, it was still alright. =.=

oh yeah, i slept in bunk 12;
together with SILVIA~
and she hugged me. HUGGED. JUNE.
hahahha, alrights, im think im gonna bathe now.
PTC tomorrow and i have yet tell my parents.
shixxx. D:

oh oh oh, instructor CRESS is insane ((:
he's my group instructor. anyways, he's the finisher of a 24.195km race.
hahahha, i doubt i can ever forget that number. freaking funny lah.

2009-05-22T20:57:00.003+08:00

"the power of autumn"

today's sectionals was okay.
had dinner. at minimart.
(: bus-ed home.
super smelly and sticky. haven bathe yet.

anyways, im going for SPEECH DAY~
cause of various reasons, one of them is for seniors.
see, am i nice or nice? ((:

not really looking forward to camp on tuesday.
seem like a disaster. lucky its only 2 day and 1 night.
anything more i'll just take MC >.>

oh oh oh!! i want a LANYARD~ the long long type.
i just have a sudden urge to have a collection of them.
they seem super cuteeeee. heh.
mine is like short? and that dancing bunny is bursting. haha.

没原因就是喜欢你
在初次相遇有重逢的心情
深呼吸让心动隐形
完美的爱情是无声的旋律
听我听你不确定的语气
等我等你放下你的犹豫
嘿如果你轻轻闭上眼睛
我会明白你做的决定
Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
祝福不用回音
没原因就是喜欢你
就像海眷恋天空般的心情
你前进看着你背影
就足够世界无条件的放晴
你如果已爱上他的姓名
爱如果已没有我的空隙
嘿只要你可以永远开心
我会情愿渐渐被忘记
Cause I Believe 那幸福不灭的定律
在你手心会有谁给你的美丽
静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你
把祝福送给你
Oh I believe Cause I believe
那幸福不灭的定律
你的手心不一定要由我握紧就像恒星总会有发光的原因
Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜
也值得我放弃

2009-05-21T18:52:00.002+08:00

当你跌倒时只要懂得爬起来，就绝对没有事。
可是没有人想过你懂得爬，只是无法爬起来？
只因为你已经感到精疲力尽……

okay, so now, my MYE is like %&#*@$*!@^&$
yes. i failed 3 subjects. epic failure.
drama siah. new mocca advertisement, "want more drama? look for June's English papers"
my maths was pass-able.
i failed 3 subjects...
literature [expected]
biology [quite logical that i'll fail]
english [ 0.0]
so, yeah, thats about it.
i don't think i can take it anymore if i fail another subject.

my DnT was suprisingly okay (:
the paper part. totally not sure about my folio part.
but i think i'll pass. i can make it one bah.

after this June Holidays, im starting to study again.
cause i'll jump down if i really fall into a Normal Stream.
so, by all means, i can make it!

2009-05-19T20:59:00.003+08:00

the cold wind past by...

okay, school today. it's bad.
yeah, its as bad as ever. well, it was never good i guess.

so, its like this.
chinese, english and literature.
chinese was actually okay...still not so bad.
i only received my composition for english. not that badly done.
almost top in class.
literature was dustbin. no, shit. no, bacteria.
yeah, whatever.

jodie made me high :D
and i decided to kept on smiling. no more frowns.
since what everyone told me was true.
this results was truly expected.
i answered the 10 marks question with 2 blunt sentences.
its the best that i can get already...right?

and so, i cheered up a bit.
started some air-con jokes around huixiu and gillian.
which they started calling me bulldog.
f.y.i, im not D: im no bitch...just a JUNE.

i've been wanting to ask, why isn there any more 2nd JUNE?

2009-05-18T17:34:00.002+08:00

okay, bad stuff first.
it started with a freaking retarded sms like 1 hour ago.
i didn't really wanted to reply back cause i've officially BURST mine.
"hello, guess who am i? i've actually followed you for years...but i guess you don't know. that broke my heart..."
yes, this retarded sms. with some other things behind.
actually i thought it was nicholas, cause of the breaking of heart stuff.
then i remembered, it was the number that i don't know.
so i started getting angry.
okay, just take it as mood swings. wtf.

so, i sms-ed back.
and went back to sleep.
wth, he/she/it, started spamming my phone. okay, that's...err, cool? retarted? irritating? =.=
i'll practically cut off all ties with that retarded person if i ever get to find out.
-------------------------

anyways, today was CLEAN-UP DAY!
was actually late...with mingxuan.
but he arrived earlier than me...cause he pasir ris.
anyways, we started moving the things.

me and nicholas turned the girls toilet, canteen, etc etc, upside down.
with just soap, water, hose and a waste paper basket.
=.=
okay, its freaking tiring.
with 6 cinderallas cleaning the bombshelter.

2009-05-17T11:30:00.002+08:00

the day pandora box was opened.

PAMELA'S BIRTHDAY IS HERE(:
today going to her party. heh. just slogged through the night at Gillian's house.
but i didn't do much.
all are the rest doing.

anyways, my these 2 weeks are filled.
haha. and im just trying not to reply sms-es.
all these days i've been calling calling and more calling.
otherwise, its just msn.
i have around 20 more free sms-es.
how i survive?!
=.=
i wish i have the STUDENT PLAN for my birthday.
PLEASE~
unlimited sms-es are shiok.
i remember MUTTONS TO MIDNIGHT saying,
that you can sms everyone in your contact list GOOD MORNING every morning.
hahahhaa.

2009-05-16T10:56:00.002+08:00

just woke up. at 8 some more (:
haha, first time woke so late...i slept for more than 17 hours.

anyways, JUNE HOLIDAYS are here...soon.
and im so not looking forward to the sec 2 adventure camp.
like not fun =.=
i rather stay at home...and maybe just go out. not go for some irritating camps.
then after that still have talks and more talks.
without a day of rest. so gay.

i suddenly have the urge to go playground.
no life. and im being random. cause im bored.
watching KO 3 for the second time.

OH! WILBUR'S ALBUM COMING OUT!!

must buy~ haha. provided its not super expensive.
cause im still somehow tight D:
but so far haven't find any addictive song inside ><
and his new hair gave me creeps. WHY LIKE THAT ONE?!

im still bored.
and my mother just reminded me i have tutoring today.
SHE ALLOWED ME TO GO FOR PAMELA'S BIRTHDAY PARTY!
mwahahhahahaa~ yay~ yay~ yay~
(((((:
but i don really care if she allows or not...but it's still better to have her consent righ?
*laughs*

i've been like staying at home these few days just for her party though.
and missed the times being in bandroom with friends.
so i better get to go man.
heh.

2009-05-15T18:19:00.002+08:00

haha, byebye MYE ((:
today's maths paper was actually incredible. its uberrrr easy.
but the lost question which consist of 8 marks flown away.
cause i gave up. ahhaaha.

anyways, went to watch ANGELS AND DEMONS today.
omg, its freaking nice :DD
must watch~ it's been a while since i watch a triller show.
hahaha. the 6 bucks spent was worth it(:

june earned the title of sharp shooter. LOL

and i have tons of activities lined up already (:
so im desperately saving money. hahaha.

2009-05-14T21:45:00.002+08:00

BonnieLin-We are all either fools or undiscovered geniuses.

okay, i slept a lot.
felt tons better. i better don't start the same thing tomorrow.
i'll just give up and go home -.-

2009-05-14T15:22:00.002+08:00

even cats have the courage to hug.

today was the fuck-est thing ever.
everything totally screwed up.
they went so wrong that none of them could go any worse.
i sms-ed samantha, she said this, "this is the time where you say, BANANA"
haha, cheered me up a bit.
we both used to be a fan of MUTTON TO MIDNIGHT.

DnT was so screwed.
20 marks flown away.
i missed the lessons on circuits. i forgot why...dang.

Literature was worst.
i knew something was wrong during the break.
i was seeing white spots at the bottom of my eyes.
and i was definitely feeling unwell.
thought i could like pulled through.
then i felt like puking, and was like perspiring worst than that time during speech day.
i was shivering. i couldn't hold my pen.
and i've only done section A.
so yeah, another 30+ marks gone for literature.
i doubt i can even pass...
i finished 2 ten marks question with just 3 sentences?
unless im a genius...which im apparently not.
so, yeah.

i gave up and slept.
and somehow went unconcious.
i was able to hear Mdm Yew saying, "okay class, time up" and all the other things.
i was able to hear jolene, jewel and janice talking in front of me.
but i just couldn wake up.
then i teared a bit. and managed to smile when joelle said, oii, 潘玮柏 here leh!

so, i staggered back home.
and pangseh-ed dinghan.
called nicholas to tell him i not meeting him.
and somehow flared up.
cause of something he said, but yeah, its not his fault.
im sorry, nicholas(:
i even wanted to return huixiu's band tee and her pencil case today.

i went dizzy halfway up the bridge.
saw junxian and he piggy-back me home.
fell asleep halfway. but could hear that he was nagging me -.-

special thanks to people who asked (:

2009-05-13T22:02:00.003+08:00

make a wish

okay, somehow same as jeleen, screwing up my bits and parts of MYE.
its not that i never study~

okay, tomorrow DT and Literature.
-sigh-
i have stiff neck the whole day siah.
2 more days (:
so, 3 weeks past rather fast don't they? :D
im out of hell soon, and shall become a mortal soon. heh.
and i so wanna watch ANGELS and DEMONS.
cause of the genre THRILLER. haha.
hope its nice(:

should also try to novel. if i have time.
hahaha. okay shit, i totally don't feel like sleeping or memorising the CAMERA ANGLES.
zzz. and im out of pens. wth? -.-
history killed and murdered my pen.
but lending pen from dinghan. cause he say he have extra (:

omg, friday last paper! :D
but its maths. shixxx.
sylvia asked me out. with james ((:
haha. we go shop. but i only scared that day no feel to go out.
cause its maths paper after all.

and im seriously gonna stay here and blog for the next 2 minute.
without moving.

OH, JUNE'S BIRTHDAY IS HERE!

a very 大件事. haha. i wanna eat cake. just a piece will do.
this year i like don have any STRONG CRAVING for gifts like last year.
-flashback of bag-
oh, this year i want LIFE-SIZE EEYORE~
eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore. eeyore.
just realised that 'eeyore' is hard to type after typing over 10 times.

2009-05-11T16:02:00.002+08:00

im left with 3 more hardcore subjects (:
DnT-port folio. =.=
ART-i don't have paintbrush and paint?! and i can't be bothered to buy them.
and finally, MATHS.

actually, only maths is tough lah.
cause im supposed to finish DnT today. so it shall be alrights :D
and art...im finishing it. i meant the planning. thanks to HUIXIU.
*grins* my somehow, my maths is sinking.
shixxx. okay, we shall chiong through everything.
i shall ask jodie and mingxuan for help tomorrow.

神阿，求命！

2009-05-11T08:57:00.003+08:00

fly fly away~

haha, never managed to study yesterday :X
but i did my DT! :D can finally hand in to Mr.Imran liao.
left a few printing stuff though (:

i pang-seh-ed my study group to slack and study at home.
haha, i'll miss my BIG BREAKFAST.
and i think nicholas will emo later with huixiu being angry.
thats what me and jodie think anyways. hahaha.

oh, i needa finish my physics and biology later.
MUSTTTT~
sian. this week finish im gonna have fun :DD
heh, i wanna watch movie, go kbox, go cycling, GO FOR BAND.
(:

女人要的是過馬路你牽著她的手
女人要的是人群多的時候你的保護

女人要的是追求幸福而不是短暫刺激
女人要的是給她微笑而不是抱怨
女人要的是若是抱怨也要彼此體諒
女人要的是體諒完能互相說出想法溝通
女人要的是溝通後坦然的答案而不是吵到最後的安慰
女人要的是吵完後的結論不是打完巴掌以後說對不起

女人要的是快樂的時候能有個人分享
女人要的是讓你第一個知道她的快樂
女人要的是嘔氣的時候聽到你說沒事了寶貝
女人要的是等你說帶妳去散散心吧

女人要的是哭泣的時候挺出肩膀讓她靠
女人要的是哭完以後你口袋的面紙

女人要的是出去不一定要你出錢但是一定要勾著你手
女人要的是可以不用想太多行程因為你就是她的旅行
女人要的是你可以試著了解但是不要漠不關心
女人要的是給你全部但不是要你佔有

女人要的是即使耍小脾氣你也願意裝可憐
女人要的是再帥的樣子不如細心的體貼
女人要的是爭吵的時候你退一步即使是她的錯
女人要的是即使是她的錯你也能體諒她的任性
女人要的是雖然任性你也能勸勸她管管她
女人要的是不絕對的自由但是彼此能呼吸的空間
女人要的是裝矜持不如勇於表達你的感受

女人要的是五十通電話不如靠在你胸膛
女人要的是一百封簡訊不如摸摸她的頭
女人要的是情書裡的甜蜜不是敷衍的情話

女人要的是安靜的時候陪她享受安靜
女人要的是玩鬧的時候和她一起玩鬧

女人要的是多一點誠懇少一點欺騙多一點溫柔少一點計較
女人要的是少一點個性多一點想法少一點霸道多一點關心

女人要的是在多委屈你都能包容
女人要的是你有委屈她都想知道
女人要的是即使幫不了你她仍然很在乎
女人要的是即使你幫不了也希望你在乎

女人要的是靠在你身上的安全感不是拈花惹草的瀟灑
女人要的是你可以不是萬人迷但是你是她心裡的唯一
女人要的是如果你是萬人迷你的心中也要把她當唯一

女人要的是簡簡單單的幸福不是轟轟烈烈的愛情
女人要的是轟轟烈烈的感情不是敷衍敷衍的熱情

女人要的是你可以乖可是不可以懦弱
女人要的是你可以壞可是不可以放縱
女人要的是你可以傻可是不可以癡呆
女人要的是你可以兇可是不可以暴力
女人要的是你可以色可是不可以變態
女人要的是你可以笨可是不可以白目

2009-05-08T18:57:00.003+08:00

i almost teared today. so its like WTH?
i talked a lot to nicholas, laughed a bit. spent most of the time smiling.
mingxuan even forbade me to emo infront of him D:<

oh, and HUIXIU HUIXIU, i think im addicted to cup corns now ((:
haha, and finally found out the difference of salt and condensed milk.
heh.

i didn't study much today. failure.

i won't be who i am NOW, if it wasn't for band.
no band equals to no life. isn't that true?
some people just never seem to understand that

2009-05-07T20:36:00.001+08:00

okay okay, just lemme blog for a while.
im super deprived from computer for IDK when.
but still. today super fun(:
especially with Jodie, MingXuan and Nicholas :D
i want HUIXIU too. but she went home through the other way...

so we were talking and talking on our way home from buddyyyy.
then me and jodie sneaked off to the playground.
hahaha.
and started all the commotion and screamings.
actually done by me.
hahahaha, supper suppppper funnnn~

NO MORE BULLYING JUNE D:<
she angry riao then you all know ahhhh~
RAWR. scared le rightttt~

anyways, today walked to interchange with joelle.
sang with her...tons of songs(:
funnnn~

2009-05-06T01:23:00.002+08:00

i said it out, read more.

walauuu, its like 1.23 a.m.
nice numbers (:
but still, i've like done nothing for DnT lahhhhh~~~
howwwww?!
and im still watching shows.
okay lah, its like my fault. but still 怎麽辦?

my mood board and image board is still empty.
my ideation all that are like NOT DONE.
product planning is like ... cause its really EMPTY.
shit lah. 0.0
june no touch for DnT lah.
i swear i'll use FN to pull up. ><>希望好运就此降临

2009-05-05T19:28:00.001+08:00

just came back from the mugging subway.
everyone's face was -.- today.
especially Nicholas!
so, history do kill.

today was actually alright...
okay, the end of school began the craziness.
i started laughing like some crazy mad woman.
quoted from HUIXIU. hahaha.

im not really in the mood to blog now.
cause of a huge huge headache 0.0
see, i studied too much. hahaha.

2009-05-05T08:12:00.004+08:00

okay, new week already.
nothing changed...MUCH.
cause yeah, im still going for school, meeting up with band seniors to study study laugh laugh.
and, IM REALLY STUDYING lohhhh~

my flu is still going on.
no more coughs, and sorethroat ((:
heh.

in MT lesson now.
super bored...jodie they all having chemistry exam.
hoho.
next lesson is music.
shiixxx, MrF.Lim again.

and just remembered that there's 2 hr of MsAnne later.
dyingggg X.X

just read a not bad chain sms. but i can't be bothered to send it. so yeah, here's the message (:
吃醋是因为喜欢;
生气是因为在乎;
发呆是因为想念;
伤心只是因为不想失去。

2009-05-01T10:31:00.002+08:00

walauuuu, im bored.
cause NO ONE's sms-ing me.
shixxxx.

people are sad.
JUNE. cause my turtles' are sick.
they got sent to a 24 hr vet.
gor said i passed the virus to them D:

i think they probably will die.
cause after all, they're old enough.
older than my mother & father.
so can't expect much D:

things have been going so wrong these few months.
1. seniors leaving.
2. being broke due to big expenditure.
3. <3 saxohpone spoiled.
4. some random stuff happening.
5. got threatened by parents. wth?!
so yeah, now plus my turtles. things are changing.

-.- mutiara just sms-ed me about DRAGONTALES.
hahaha, how she know its my favourite show? heh.
(: okay, so now, im about to get ready to go out.
finally. omg, a day stuck at home was absolutely terribleeee.
but i have people who visited me. heh. thanks lohhh. hahhaa.
that is apparently NOT SINCERE. ((((:

2009-05-01T09:04:00.002+08:00

i'll try my best

its been preeeetty long since i've posted.
so yeah, here it goes.

i'll just start with SPEECH DAY.
tons of things happen.
but the main story is actually AFTER the SpeechDay concert.
yes, crying and huggings. oh, cam-whores too(:
and there goes all the byebyes...

Renee: i'll miss you loads.
i'll miss the way you demands me to behave properly in band...those times we were laughing together. come back and visit us soon(:

Jodie: omg, im really gonna gonna miss you a lot a lot. i'll try my best to get into the same band as you okay? haha, we'll create havoc again. hahahaha. actually just me. but yeah, i'll miss you a lot too(: go DIAN DENG PAO cum DUCK cum everything else(:

Gillian: you're always calling JUNEEEEE, so now its GILLIANNNNN. yeah, im already missing you now(: those after band dinners were the fun times, especially with you :D thank you. heh.

i forgot what happened on Sunday. im sorry :X

monday...some crappy stuff.
oh right, there was exams.
kinda retarded stuff that made me angry.
but nicholas and people cheered me up(:
i went with Jodie to swing at around 7 or 8 at night.
haha. my crazy part.

tuesday...went mugging again.
oh right, oral was retarded.
and i think i have 10 for my picture(:
"interesssting" hahahaha.

wednesday...i was down with a very big irritating flu virus.
with people calling me pig. wth?
oh, right, we went mugging again. haha(: its nice to mug with people who really mugs.
LOL.
before that, went with DingHan to finish my DT port folio.
dragged him around pasir ris. hahahaha(:

thursday...i gave up.
dying le. so went to see doctor.
-.- retarded family doctor tio flu also.
so bo pian, have to go polyclinic.
waited for idk how long.
and was kept into a room cause i had flu and fever and etc.
DO I LOOK LIKE A PIG? 0.0 cause its swine flu.
zzz. anyways, i stayed at home.
sms-ing, talking on phone.
laughing with james. haha. sylvia was funny.

friday. today loh.
woke up freaking early.
cause i had to take my medicine.
and ate everything then realised i haven eat my breakfast.
tio scolded by my brother ><

later going out with MingXuan, Jodie they all...
im studyyyyying~! RAWR.

2009-04-22T17:51:00.004+08:00

the unknown

and so, today continues.
with another day of maths.
today's maths was uberrrr easy (:
completed everythingggg, except the last question.
i spent like 30 minutes on it, then i gave up :X

waited for Nicholas for his extra class to end.
and helped Sylvia and Korrine with the Career Corner notice board.
it was fun(:

so me and Nicholas talked and MRT-ed to Tampines.
haha. its always nice to talk to Nicholas. heh.
we saw Suhaylah and her friend at T1. [:
and met up with Mutiara at Yamaha.
ate PastaMania...

so Bus-ed home.
listening to 'AllegroCantabile' a very very nice song.
hoho.

i think im the first person to fall down backwards. haha

okay though this issue is like totally last month...
but still, if some SILENT READER sneaked in to read. tskk.
so yeah, its here. [its my blog, and i type what i think]
i know im not perfect. im not saying that you are.
so yeeah.
borrowing something from someone, you should say thank you.
politely and mean it.
not KP or anything. my father NOR my mother need any greetings from you.
yes, i don mind if you say me, but never my family.
i rather a FUCK YOU then a KP/KB.
its quite late to say a thank you now, but just say you're sorry -.-
even after that stare you don't know how i feel?
okay, maybe you're that retarded. idk.
no more KP/KB, cause i'll repeat,
i treasure my family members more than anything else.
if you still don't understand, you'll get it when you're in trouble.
also my friends. cause i only make friends with those that really cares.
though i can say that they too, aren't perfect,
but they are those that will really go through thick and thin with you.